Besides being a walking tornado, I´ve either been too busy traveling or working, or I´ve had too much time on my hands, which, funnily enough has the same outcome: I don´t get to do shit around the house and I´m still behind with most things, including laundry and billing. Not to mention grieving and getting on top of things. But hey, what are the 30s for, besides figuring out your place in the world? haha! 😉 (I´m in a glorious mood today, watch out!)
Author: ghetran
Strike out
Strike out everything I wrote yesterday,
It´s the meds, it´s the meds!
The nausea, the vertigo and the sweaty palms,
I might just do happy after all.
Phew! There´s still hope for a 35 years old neurotic-
I keep telling myself that
One day I might even start believing it.
February 2016
Sadness
I´ve been feeling sad today
And I can neither blame it on PMS,
Nor on the feeling of unrequited love.
I don´t really know why I´m sad now
Meaning if I´m sad because I´m sad,
Or if I´m sad because I´m happy
And since happy is not a familiar place,
I hurry back to sad
Because I can do sad better.
Am I this broken, or is this normal?
Listening to Amy Winehouse-
“At least I´m not drinking”, she sings-
I wish I could drink myself senseless,
So I don´t feel a damn thing
Feeling is overrated,
My depression seems alluring now.
February 2016
Thursdays
Thursdays are for soul searching,
Dinners with friends,
Runny nose and clouded eyes,
Thursdays are for sleeping alone.
I don´t want us to move so fast,
I always rush into things,
I don´t even know the meaning of slow,
But I´d like this time to last.
Like in a modern fairytale
I kind of miss you,
But I´m too busy running around
To admit it to myself.
Good night, pretty baby
Search for me with your fingertips
You´ll find my smell in your sheets.
February, 2016
London in pics
This was my last getaway in a long time now. 😉 Too much running around and too little work done lately. The laundry keeps piling up, haven´t touched a book in a month and I´m behind with billing, too. Not to mention accountancy. Uæææææ!
Enough about that, though. London was great, as always. I was there in December last year, but before that I hadn´t been in the UK in 6 years and I realised I´d really missed it. Nature was in full bloom, although it was cold as f*, the food was yummy and my friends were great, as always. 😉
London part 2
Today was a strange day. That day of the month again (God, I need to change my traveling dates soon, it´s starting to get on my nerves!) when I can barely stand myself, let alone others. Luckily, I didn´t have a lot of plans for the day and the few plans I had didn´t include people until 7 pm, when I met up with Lavinia for drinks and pulled pork in a Texas burger joint. 😉
So I woke up in physical pain at 6:45 am, took a pill and a shower, made myself some tea and waited for the house to wake up. 😉 The toddler and Camelia appeared half an hour later, both cutie cute, searching for his milk bottle around the apartment. 😉 We had breakfast, in turns, then they left for his baby sitter and her work, while I went back to sleep for 3 more hours. Praise the Lord for freelance life! 😉
London 2016
I´m in London for 4 days again after a very busy week and it´s great fun, although British winters are what they are- wet, windy and grey. But God, do I love this city! So much choice in terms of things to do, food to eat and people to talk to! So cosmopolitan, I feel so good amidst all these nationalities, so at ease with their politeness, their inclusion and their diversity. I almost feel like I belong.
Frail beginnings
When you hold me
I feel at peace with myself,
My arms lie restful
In my lap,
My breath is rhythmic,
My heart beats steadily.
Gone are the murky thoughts
And sleep comes easy
Like a quirky sentence,
You make me feel so funny,
Did you know?
They say you shouldn´t patch love with love
You should let your soul heal first
But how do you heal the loss of love
Unless you fall in love again?
February 2016
Friday yay!
I survived this week, although I had my doubts! You see, I forgot my luggage on the train to Skien on Tuesday and I had serious withdrawal symptoms from my Mac. 😉 I was longing for it like we ache for love-haha! Talk about addiction!But now we´re reunited! ❤
Mornings
Mornings are ruthless
They come with a sort of a backlash
And I loose my footing
Before I even open my eyes.
You linger on in the air
Like a certainty
Someone that’s always been there
How can I start anew?
February 2016
life in a bubble 