Bullshit, I feel like saying out loud!
I know I should restrain myself, but I can´t!
Arghhh! Such bullshit!
Forget it! Keep it to yourself, I don´t want to know!
Whatever. I´m busy enough as I am
I don´t need this shit, too
You probably get that, too
I only go with the heart
It´s good we´re not all alike.
Everyday life takes its toll on me again,
I try to keep busy
So I don´t have to think
About anything big.
It´s fairly predictable, this being alone thing
I do the same stuff, mostly
I walk the dog
I avoid the kitchen
And I play loud music
So as not to hear my own thoughts.
But they´re so piercing and so insistent
And they´re so reproaching, too.
They follow me around everywhere
“Please, let me be!”
“No, we´re not through with you
You need to listen!”
Then I push the head phones
In my ears, until they hurt-
It reminds me of when I stuffed my nose
Full of corn, as a child
And it´s soothing.
Tomorrow I´ll be fine.
I´ll think of something
I´ll keep away from the kitchen
And won´t spill any water all over the sink.
November started with a pang: I´ve attended two conferences already, I´ve got a lot to do at work and our social arena has been stuffed with birthdays, gatherings and such. And it´s only a matter of time before all those Christmas party invitations start rolling in. At the same time, my body responds later and later, it´s getting dark early and light- late and I´d sleep most of my days off, if only I could. 😉 😦
Heia! How have you been? I´ve been running around these couple of days, between jobs, friends and home and my whole body hurts as though I´d been working with my back! Besides buying groceries and taking Sam out once out of three times, I haven´t done that much, but working as an interpreter sure takes its toll on me. After a 9 hours´ day, I usually fall half-dead on the couch and watch Hbo with V. (we´re on Brotherhood now and we love it!)
Today was not as busy however, so I managed to squeeze in a long awaited coffee with a friend of mine and Sam. We sat outside with our necks stretched towards the sun (while Sam was hiding under the bench) and I almost had a heat stroke, I swear! But it felt amazing, after all these cold days, when winter seemed to be never-ending, you need a bit of sun to feel alive again!