It´s refreshing to be back in Bucharest, where most of my family and friends live, I let myself be dragged into its moist grip, I venture in it like in the arms of a lover.
As I do it, I´m trying to get a grasp of myself in the mirrors of the city. I sometimes catch a glimpse of my old self, familiar gestures go through me with the violence of an ambush. I go to the same places and although they smell the same, they bring me in a slight state of faint.
“You tick a lot of boxes”, you said
I like that, it´s a new one
The saying things we wouldn´t say in our 20s
Like “No bullshit, please, I´m too old for that!”
“What would make you happy?”
I´m wondering sometimes
Me! I´d make me happy
If I just found out who I was for sure.
I went to the movies on my own last week
So much choice, what a treat!
I´ll be going again on Saturday
It´s part of the process, I guess
Not sure about the process,
Loving the movie part, though.
I found these beauties on Pinterest and they describe my mood nowadays. Although today was a glorious day- the sun was shining and I had a couple of assignments that felt more like hanging out with buddies than actual working- my mind has been dark and melancholic for a while now. I´m difficult to please, I need a lot of variation so I don´t drown in the mundane and at the same time a lot of sleep, I constantly search for a way to get more satisfaction from my daily life without having to resort to shopping as a means of instant gratification, and so on and so forth. It´s not as bad as it sounds, but the regular series watching and other people´s post work out joy doesn´t cut it for me. To sum it up in a funny way: I need some cheap hobbies! Haha! 😉 I´m thinking of taking up photography for real. I also enjoy reading, but for now I don´t have the peace of mind needed. Any other suggestions?