Waiting for the move to sink in and for the money to tick into my account and take away my debt and sleepless nights, I’m trying to go back to things that used to make me happy, back when I had time and energy to think about that.
So I’ve been cooking a lot lately. The general staff holiday is not over yet, meaning I’ve been easing my way into work and still had a couple of hours left here and there, unpacking and putting things in order and making plans for dinner.
The first really yummy meal I made was this one – scampi, asparagus, lemon and spaghetti is a divine combination, you have to try it! We ate and ate and ate some more while licking our fingers and lips, just like a cat after a fish meal. Speaking of cats, have you seen Kedi? What a lovely, lovely movie! I went to see it with a friend of mine and I haven’t laughed so much in ages!
The second delicious dinner I made yesterday- eggplant parmigiana. I’d heard about it so many times that I decided to see what the fuss was all about. And since I hadn’t tried anything on Ioana’s blog yet, I was eager to start.
Today we’re taking it slowly, F is pimping his bike and I still haven’t woken up for real. I’ve been tired and not so very happy these days, I feel such an emptiness, it’s surreal. I remember my therapist warned me against this when I handed in my MA thesis, he said depressed persons tend not to feel relief and instead just chase after new projects to burry themselves into. I hope it’s not true, I hope I can learn to enjoy myself and life without the big plans, the big purchases and the big spending.