Back home to a frozen Oslo and minus 18, I can´t help but wishing I lived somewhere else entirely. I woke up this morning and had to literally race to the kitchen to make the fire, or else I wouldn´t be able to walk around without the duvet wrapped around me.
Anyways. Back to Rome. What a city! Maybe this is the way to see it, after all, not chase after experiences, like I probably did last time, but let go of all expectations and see where it takes you, what it has in store for you. I love being able to walk around with hasty steps, like I have a purpose, music in my ears, let my eyes linger on a building, smile at the sight of a balcony overgrown with plants, reminisce something from another lifetime, then suppress it with the reluctance of swallowing cough syrup.
Let me feel your skin of burned sand, open your shutters to the sun, do I have a penny, wait, no, I think I got it. Nope. I always feel bad for the street vendors in southern countries, they don´t seem to be there by choice, I can see it in their eyes, they look empty, I wonder if they´ve lost all hope of a decent living or if this is still better than home. I want to get some roasted chestnuts, but I don´t feel like eating on the street, I´m not even hungry. I´m really struggling to eat lately. Oh, you´re so imposing! Not in a boastful way, I can see you with my bare eye, you awaken something in me, something ancestral, something buried right under my skin. You give me goosebumps, darling. And the food! Oh, the food! I used to think French cuisine was the best, for some reason, but the last couple of years I finally discovered what “the fuss” about Italian food is all about. I don´t know why it took me this long. Some things come to you right away, other need to be chewed on first.
I´m back to my hectic and bohemian life, like a girlfriend put it. A two days´ trial (with all the hassle it implies) ended up being over after 15 minutes, so I found myself with lots of time on my hands. I haven´t done as much as I should have, though, but it´s been good. Today and tomorrow I´m busy again, but I´m so grateful for work, as long as I´m on top of it, bring it on! 😉
See you again, Rome! ❤