I’ve been down with a cold ever since I came back, on top of too much work- four days in Arendal, two in Drammen and a horrible written translation on the side. On Friday I got Sam and I had to deal with my bad conscience, too, for not being well enough to walk him as much as I’d hoped for. And if that wasn’t enough, my work task was particularly heavy these days, I interpreted in two tragic cases that left me with thousand thoughts on my mind, including the one that people should be issued a certificate stating they’re capable of taking care of a child, before having one. So there, now I’ve said it. It applies for my brother, too.
Funny enough, instead of making me even more reluctant to have children, the past couple of weeks actually had the opposite effect. I kind of saw myself with other eyes, the fact that, although I might be depressed and tired and all this, I am actually a sensitive adult that puts other people’s needs in front of hers and so I could probably be a good mother, maybe even a better mother than the ones who never had to take things like that into consideration. A bit like with Sam- yes, he would probably go skiing in the winter and hiking in the woods in the summer with a sportier mum, but then I make sure he gets his walkies and his treats and I take him to dinner parties, too. Plus there’s never been a baby more loved than he is. And I think he knows it. (Haha! How about a scarf?! haha! Take if off, mom!)
Otherwise, I’m happier than I’ve been in years. Although life in our new home is less eventful than before, due to the fact that we don’t live as central as we used to, I love our view, our evening walks in the woods, our glass of wine in front of the TV, playing fetch with Sam at 10 pm and getting in bed by 12.
We have two pretty hectic months ahead of us and then there’s Christmas and then we’re going to Morocco. Can’t wait to! I should start with the Xmas shopping soon, every year I get worse when it comes to shopping with crowds of people around. For now, I leave you with these buns, made them on Sunday and they’re to die for!